I finished watching all 23 episodes of this anime called Ergo Proxy. Although, I've mentioned this anime already in an earlier post. I wanted to share how much I like the opening song of the anime. Half the interest that I have for the anime is because of the song.
Check out the full version of the song that somebody spliced in with scenes from the anime below. The prose of the song, especially in the chorus, is very moving to me. I can feel my chest getting heavier and lighter at the same time. It is of the same approach that I had in one of the songs I've written in the past; about screaming to the heavens, yearning for someone to save me.
Kiri
by Monoral
You complete my fate
The world unwinds inside of me
You complete my fate
The halo crawls away
You repeat my fate
Rewinding all we can
You refill my place
You refill my place place
Come and save me
Come and save me
Come and save me
Come and save me
Come and save me
You complete my fate
The heavens stroll inside of me
You repeat my fate
Revealing who we are
You refill my place
You refill my place
Come and save me
Come and save me
Come and save me
Come for me and take out my heart and take my breath away
Come and save me
Come for me and take out my heart and take my breath away
Come and save me
Believe in me
Drink the wine
Take my hand
Fill me up
Believe in me
Drink the wine
Take my hand
Let me follow
I found a video on YouTube of the shortened version of the song that they play as the opening song of the anime. I figured I'd throw that in here as well.
I want to learn this song on guitar and sing it. Unfortunately, my vocal chords can't hit the sustained high notes in the chorus consistently yet. Some days my voice is just off. Oh well, it's not like I'm a vocalist or anything. I just do this for fun. The equivalent of singing in the shower, so to speak. I suppose it's just about practice. Either that or I cheat with a falsetto and raise the volume of my voice when I do it. I'm such a cheater when it comes to guitar playing and singing at times.
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Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
Read it and Weep Boys!!!...
As the title of this post says, below is a cropped portion of a screenshot I took of a nice Kerev Blood Whip that I dropped while playing Dekaron yesterday afternoon.
3 x +1% Critical Rate baby!!! All I have to do now is fortify it up to +6, punch sockets in it, and insert 3 x +5% Curse Damage gems. My Segnale character will be so sweet by then.
Below is the full screenshot if you guys still don't believe me.
What can beat this Kerev Blood Whip? A Divine Noble Kerev with 4 x +1% Critical Rate options. That's very hard to find. Good luck to all of us in our neverending search for it. In the meantime, look at the screenshot again and drown in your own geek-a-rama drool.
For those of you who totally don't understand a word in this post, this is about a game called Dekaron.
---While waving his right hand, motioning to do a Jedi Mind Trick.---
"You will click on the URL below, sign-up, download, install, and play this game..."
http://dekaron.mobiusgames.net/
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3 x +1% Critical Rate baby!!! All I have to do now is fortify it up to +6, punch sockets in it, and insert 3 x +5% Curse Damage gems. My Segnale character will be so sweet by then.Below is the full screenshot if you guys still don't believe me.
What can beat this Kerev Blood Whip? A Divine Noble Kerev with 4 x +1% Critical Rate options. That's very hard to find. Good luck to all of us in our neverending search for it. In the meantime, look at the screenshot again and drown in your own geek-a-rama drool.For those of you who totally don't understand a word in this post, this is about a game called Dekaron.
---While waving his right hand, motioning to do a Jedi Mind Trick.---
"You will click on the URL below, sign-up, download, install, and play this game..."
http://dekaron.mobiusgames.net/
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Sunday, October 26, 2008
Kami no Pino?
After my heavy post yesterday, I figured I'd put up something lighter today. I've been watching this anime called Ergo Proxy. It's a pretty deep anime; with subtle background themes that touch various philosophies, legends, and beliefs of the world. But enough about that, what I really wanted to show you is how cute "Pino" is in the anime. Pino is one of the supporting characters; a cogito virus infected companion autorave (android). She at times walks around in this funny pink bunny costume. Here are pictures of Pino below.
Around this time last year, Kami, my uber cute little niece was spending her first months living in this world. My sister, Janne, and brother-in-law, John, dressed Kami up in a costume. Rather than describe it, I'll just show you pictures. You'll see the cute parallel soon enough.
So cuuuuute!!! Kamiiiii!!!
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Around this time last year, Kami, my uber cute little niece was spending her first months living in this world. My sister, Janne, and brother-in-law, John, dressed Kami up in a costume. Rather than describe it, I'll just show you pictures. You'll see the cute parallel soon enough.
So cuuuuute!!! Kamiiiii!!!END OF LINE...
Saturday, October 25, 2008
The Concept of Understanding...
I haven't blogged in a while. I've been consuming most of my free time playing this game called Dekaron. I've mentioned this game quite a few times in this blog. Although I have a number of other things to blog about right now, I decided to blog about my epiphany because in the end I only have myself to talk to about those things.
Yes, I talk to myself. If that weirds you out, there's this little red square with an "X" on it on the top right corner of your browser. Click on it. My weirdness goes away.
I wanted to talk about the concept of understanding, and why I have come to realize that you can never expect any person to utilize it other than yourself.
This past year, I've grown to take a step back and understand people more. I suppose this came with age because I never used to be this way 5-6 years ago. In retrosepect, I had a lot of arrogance in me back then. When I started working for a living, I somehow strayed from the insecure geek that I used to be. I suppose the quick promotions and sudden influx of new friends got to my head. Going through the rigors of working for money, dealing with personalities in the workplace, and throwing personal emotions into the mix, has taught me to be humble. It's a good thing that since then, I've come back down from the high-horse I was riding.
Slowly, I grew mature enough to realize that I really didn't have so many friends. The term friends started to be classified to many categories like "casual friends", "musician friends", etc. The actual real friends that I have, I can count with my fingers. But today, I realize it's even fewer than I thought.
As a good friend to someone, I try to understand their perspective. I've grown to be slow to anger these days. So shifting to understanding is much easier for me than in the past. And if I don't understand right away, I take the time to hear someone out until I get their point. I'm generally like that. But I'm also not completely consistent with that in every situation in life. I am still human, afterall. But what happens most often is that with every situation, I look at fault in myself as a first action. And hence, the understanding begins as the next action.
Having a relationship or even just a good friendship with someone, you would think that understanding is at the core of it. That's suppose to be how you get along. So when you are in a relationship or a friendship, you would come to expect a certain level of understanding from the other. Even if you only expect it once in a blue moon, there will be a situation where you will ask the other to please understand, and not have to utter the words to actually ask for it.
I thought relationships could be one-sided. But apparently friendship can be one-sided too at times. On rare moments, when you would hope for understanding from the other. You find out that never you had the right to expect it in the first place. That your connection with someone only entails, that for the duration of that connection, you are only to understand the other. And that's it.
This is the very fear I have. The people who mean something to me are growing less and less. The decrease caused by off chances that I make a mistake of actually hoping for understanding from another person. Then you realize you can't even ask for anything in general. People give you only what they feel like giving you. I keep losing people in my life because of my notion that I can actually ask someone for something back, no matter how much you've given to them.
So is this how things are going to be regardless of what degree you have a connection with someone? That I will always look at what fault I've done? That I have always say I'm sorry even when at times I'm not in the wrong?
The answer to that question is YES, regardless if it is a friendship, intimate relationship, work relationship, etc. And knowing that tells me I'm destined to be completely alone.
When everybody else leaves you, you're family is always there. And I am one of the lucky ones that has a nice family that's intact with little or no complications. So as I write this post, I start talking to myself once again.
"I don't miss the people that leave or walk away from me."
"I miss my family because at least I can expect them to understand me in certain situations... just because they are family."
"I miss my two sisters who I can really talk to."
"Perhaps I should really head off to the States to join them."
"I've got all the toys I want and no one to share it with over here."
"I miss having a conversation without holding something back."
"I better shut up now."
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Yes, I talk to myself. If that weirds you out, there's this little red square with an "X" on it on the top right corner of your browser. Click on it. My weirdness goes away.
I wanted to talk about the concept of understanding, and why I have come to realize that you can never expect any person to utilize it other than yourself.
This past year, I've grown to take a step back and understand people more. I suppose this came with age because I never used to be this way 5-6 years ago. In retrosepect, I had a lot of arrogance in me back then. When I started working for a living, I somehow strayed from the insecure geek that I used to be. I suppose the quick promotions and sudden influx of new friends got to my head. Going through the rigors of working for money, dealing with personalities in the workplace, and throwing personal emotions into the mix, has taught me to be humble. It's a good thing that since then, I've come back down from the high-horse I was riding.
Slowly, I grew mature enough to realize that I really didn't have so many friends. The term friends started to be classified to many categories like "casual friends", "musician friends", etc. The actual real friends that I have, I can count with my fingers. But today, I realize it's even fewer than I thought.
As a good friend to someone, I try to understand their perspective. I've grown to be slow to anger these days. So shifting to understanding is much easier for me than in the past. And if I don't understand right away, I take the time to hear someone out until I get their point. I'm generally like that. But I'm also not completely consistent with that in every situation in life. I am still human, afterall. But what happens most often is that with every situation, I look at fault in myself as a first action. And hence, the understanding begins as the next action.
Having a relationship or even just a good friendship with someone, you would think that understanding is at the core of it. That's suppose to be how you get along. So when you are in a relationship or a friendship, you would come to expect a certain level of understanding from the other. Even if you only expect it once in a blue moon, there will be a situation where you will ask the other to please understand, and not have to utter the words to actually ask for it.
I thought relationships could be one-sided. But apparently friendship can be one-sided too at times. On rare moments, when you would hope for understanding from the other. You find out that never you had the right to expect it in the first place. That your connection with someone only entails, that for the duration of that connection, you are only to understand the other. And that's it.
This is the very fear I have. The people who mean something to me are growing less and less. The decrease caused by off chances that I make a mistake of actually hoping for understanding from another person. Then you realize you can't even ask for anything in general. People give you only what they feel like giving you. I keep losing people in my life because of my notion that I can actually ask someone for something back, no matter how much you've given to them.
So is this how things are going to be regardless of what degree you have a connection with someone? That I will always look at what fault I've done? That I have always say I'm sorry even when at times I'm not in the wrong?
The answer to that question is YES, regardless if it is a friendship, intimate relationship, work relationship, etc. And knowing that tells me I'm destined to be completely alone.
When everybody else leaves you, you're family is always there. And I am one of the lucky ones that has a nice family that's intact with little or no complications. So as I write this post, I start talking to myself once again.
"I don't miss the people that leave or walk away from me."
"I miss my family because at least I can expect them to understand me in certain situations... just because they are family."
"I miss my two sisters who I can really talk to."
"Perhaps I should really head off to the States to join them."
"I've got all the toys I want and no one to share it with over here."
"I miss having a conversation without holding something back."
"I better shut up now."
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